I remember waking up one morning and my feet hurt so bad. My whole body hurt. I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself “this can’t be it, this can’t be all there is to life”. I was so tired ALL THE TIME. I didn’t want to do anything and I didn’t want to see anybody. I refused to let anyone take pictures of me EVER. I didn’t want to see myself. I tried in the past to do so many diets and failed miserably every time. I didn’t want this to be another one of those. I thought to myself, what did I do every single time that was the same and why did I fail? Then it hit me. Every other time I was counting down the seconds until the diet was over and I was finished. I remember always saying “I can’t wait til I’m skinny so I can eat whatever I want”. At that moment I realized, THAT”S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN. People who are fit DON’T EAT DORITOS AND TACO BELL, they just don’t. Their bodies look like that for a reason. It’s called SELF CONTROL. The ability to say no and not desire that junk food lifestyle. It may be extreme but at that point I made the decision I AM DONE WITH JUNK FOOD FOREVER. That lifestyle is a thing of the past. I threw it back there and made the decision to never turn back.
On the second aspect of that was FITNESS. I never worked out in my entire life. I remember doing a few classes of gymnastics and P.E. in school but that was it. A few times in my adult life I got into jogging for like 3 days but gave up pretty quickly. I knew this was another thing that had to change. I saw a photo of this lady on the internet. She was like 65 years old and was SUPER fit. Then I thought… you get to choose! You get to choose how your body transforms as you get older. You don’t have to let your body go. You don’t have to be 70 and in a wheelchair. You can be that person if you are willing to do the work! As a single mom of 2 young kids, I want to be there for them. I play a dual-role and I want to be here for them as long as humanly possible. The way I can do that is to keep my body in tip-top-shape. An amazing thing happened, I have no idea how but I discovered “preworkout”. It’s a supplement with caffeine to help you get your workout done. It’s the closest thing to “the magic pill” that exists in my opinion. You drink it and you are just READY to accomplish everything. Your body will not allow you to take it and then just lay down and watch a movie, you get up and goooo! The 2nd amazing thing about it is it completely tunes out that voice in the back of your head during your workouts that says “you can’t do it”. It just shuts it off. It is the secret ingredient for sure! So here I am after my first workout! I did Insanity Max 30 at home with my kids in the background. It was CRAZY DIFFICULT. I paused the video more times than I can count because I literally couldn’t breathe. That’s how out of shape I was. I didn’t care though, because I knew it wouldn’t be like that forever, it wasn’t imprortant to me how I did, it was important that I GOT IT DONE!